DRC - Where Are You...??

DRC...

Now...Ai sangat-sangat berduka... sangat-sangat...

Even this tears is always here... non stop. You ada dimana DRC...?? Or should I went to 'there' semata-mata nak cari seorang sahabat yang entah dimana..? I can't stand it ALONE anymore... i cant get through with all this. I try hardly to be natural as hard as i can... but gila...!!! Kalau orang lain dah lama dah patah semangat nak hidup rasanya....

I need an ears.... not a shoulder to cry on....because the wall between us is still there and always there...and that person is you... you can be a good listener to me rite? as usual... like last few years.... 

Like I said to you before.... 'carilah kebahagiaan untuk diri sendiri walaupun kita terpaksa merangkak'....  Nak 'menyulur' pun I dah tak mampu.... inikan pula nak 'merangkak'.... jauh sekali berjalan dan berlari.... u got what i mean..?? Kalau I ada kaki untuk berlari....dah lama I berlari tanpa henti...

PLEASE...u got BOTH of my number & BOTH of my emails... kindly say something because I 'always know'... you read this notes....

May Allah Bless.... both of us. Insyaallah

DISAPPOINTED

YES... MEMANG AKU KECEWA ....

IF I HAVE A CHANCE TO 'RESTRUCTURE' BACK MY LIFE.... I'LL DO IT NO MATTER WHAT... NO MATTER WHOM... NO MATTER WHEN... I'LL PUSH THEM BACK HARDLY. NO MATTER WHOSE HEART WILL BE BROKEN...!!!

SO MANY THINGS MAKE ME DISAPPOINTED WITH THIS KIND OF LIFE... 

WITH THIS KIND OF BREATH.... 

WITH THIS KIND OF SOUL....

Ya allah... berilah peluang kepada ku untuk memperbetulkan segala yang pincang dalam KEHIDUPAN ku ini. Sememangnya aku jarang meminta... namun. kumohon hanya padamu, berilah sekelumit kebahagian padaku...walaupun untuk seketika cuma sebelum aku menutup mata, kembali padamu....

Hanya padamu tempat aku mengadu betapa kecewanya aku....

May Allah Bless